In the 'Groove' or not?!

Today I had one of my events take place. I was ok with it, yet I also know I could have done better. I know how much detail I can get from one spirit, yet I also realize that in front of a crowd of people I can't linger on for too long.

It is interesting with my work, that there are times when I know I'm in the groove, and then there are times when I don't fall so easily into that groove. I suppose it's like the musician, there are times when you're in the 'moment' of creation and then there are times, when you play on automatic but you know you're not creating sparks.

I like creating those sparks for the brief moment people get a chance to see me work. I always strive to have the connection so clear that there is no static what so ever and the spirit of the deceased person comes over me easily and effortlessly.

When performers say they have a routine, they follow and they then know they'll have a good performance, that is too what I usually do, follow a routine. Today though, I fell out of routine. It only took one phone call to shake my energy. This phone call wasn't even for me, nor anyone I knew. Yet it was too close to comfort.

During my work, I sensed I wasn't in the groove, yet the recipients at the event were happy, came up to me after wards and thank me whole heartily.

Someone also told me afterwards that I'm too hard on myself. I blame it on years and years of college and university papers and essays. Always striving towards the absolute best.

In my heart, only A is good enough for me, because I know I can deliver it. Yet it is obvious that B is splendid for others. They don't know the difference of B or A as I know it.

In the future, I will ask those that are around me, to respect my quiet place and turn off any gadgets so that I may perform the music spirit would like me to perform.

The string quartet should get full attention, not partial as this work truly is for spirit.

On a totally different note, why does my cat snore, and why does he gulp for air all the time?

Fascinated

One thing that I find myself more and more fascinated with is the human body and medicine. I admit I know nothing about it at all, and I found myself never really being that interested in it. I'm one of these people that never ever get sick, and I don't even have a primary care physician and haven't ever in my whole life.
With my work though, my curiosity was peaked, and I found myself being more and more interested in peoples conditions and how illness affects the body.
As a medium, I 'see' I 'feel' and I 'hear' things. I'm not schizo though, as there was a study at Harvard MedSchool I participated in, that confirmed that I was pretty normal, except that my brain 'lights' up differently when doing certain tasks, or when understanding words, comparing faces. Schizos apparently are VERY different, and I actually met one not too long ago, and I have to agree. Being schizophrenic people in my mind are disillusional almost all the time. No reality there, what so ever.
That too, is fascinating how they were able with MRI's to see the difference in brains, and how normal people are, compared to schizo's and compared to mediums. I'm assuming the study was scientific as we went through rigorous testing before being accepted into it.

As I've felt more people die, than I can even remember, what I know is that dying of lung cancer is the most painful way of dying. Even though people are on painkillers/morphine the pain is excruciating. Possibly that it's a brain thing, but people suffocate very very very slowly.
Feeling someone being decapitated is not a big deal, or feeling someone who passed in 9/11 was not that intense either.
There is definitely a difference when a person dies from an illness and when a person dies from an accident.

So my fascination for medicine has increased drastically. For one, I can see the human body, as if I was doing an MRI. I can go into such details, and along with downloading the physical ailment, I too usually get the history of the person. Such as age, when sth happened, or an illness struck etc. etc. I usually get the personal history if there is a relationship between two conditions. A back injury, that happened in one place of the back, and is affecting another place in the back years later.
The body is all connected, and it all seems to communicate to different parts of the body,whether it be physical pleasure or pain.

I've also been able to do this on animals, and I think the most memorable was one I did for a horse owner. A woman had just purchased a horse (now, that is NOT why she came to see me) but during the sitting I was being shown her horse, and the whole inside and outside of the horse. This horse had tremendous arthritis in the left hip, and the pain was causing the horse to walk off beat. The lady had an aha moment! And confirmed all I said to be true.

I never ever know, what I'll be shown. Doing mediumship is like opening up a box of chocolates, you never know what you're going to get, and a good medium will open the box, eat all the candies inside and tell you in detail what each candy looked like and what it tasted like and where it was located in the box. The favourite candy will be the one I tend to ponder on for a while.

Mediumship can be quite invigorating.
In my next post I'll speak about people and some memorable moments where I was able to see physical things, yet I was not able to put them into medical terminology. I can only describe in absolute detail what I see.